Good Love Will Find Me
It’s been a fucking good weekend…and like I just know this week is going to be great…even if it’s total shit it’s still gonna be great. That makes no sense but yet it does. Because I’m actually like really happy. Genuine happiness which has not happened in god knows how long. So I don’t even care if I totally forgot to put my clothes in the wash..meaning I probs have nothing to wear tomorrow..or the fact that my math project is shit, or that I’m basically failing chem. Don’t care. Do not. Couldn’t care less.
Everything is right in the world. Me and my best friend are back to being our normal selves..better than normal..and everything is rainbows and unicorns and I’m not keeping secrets and I feel like fucking peter pan or something..just flying around high on pixie dust! So yeah. This week is gonna be great. Next week will be great too. And then the concert. The peak of greatness. And then it’ll be june. And then school will end and summer will begin and it’s gonna be fun times yoo!
First time in a long time that I’m excited about life.
Like you don’t understand. That one chapter…is the ONLY CHAPTER in the entire series that is set in the past. Like as in it’s actually the past and not a flashback or someone’s memories or whatever. It’s the real and ligit past. In that one chapter it is actually 1981 and Lily and James were alive just 24 hours ago. That chapter is the closest thing to having Lily and James alive in real time…if that makes sense? And I just have so many feelings. Like the whole time Dumbledore and McGonagall are talking I just think, “Sirius Black is probably confronting Wormtail. Peter is probably getting away at this very moment. Aurors are surrounding Sirius now and arresting him. Remus is all alone somewhere, mourning the loss of his friends instead of celebrating the downfall of Voldemort. Alice and Frank may be being tortured by Death Eaters right now.” And then I just cry. On the outside that first chapter seems random and boring and just a set up with background information. But no. Nope. It’s so much more. I’M WORSE THAN YOUR ENGLISH TEACHER when it comes to this chapter. I will dig deeper into this chapter because it’s the one and only Marauders era set chapter. I don’t mean the only chapter about them…because obviously there are bigger and more important marauder chapters in the series..but I mean this is the only chapter where the time frame is actually set in Marauders-Era. And just..ugh! feeeeeeeeeeeelings.
Sunday
Monday
Tuesday
Remus wanted to be with Tonks, but she was all like “No, you’re right, you’re too old for me, and you’re a werewolf. It just wouldn’t work.”
So then they were broken up, and Tonks really wanted to be with him, but she just told him that she didn’t thinking that it would make things easier…? (HOW WOULD THAT MAKE THINGS EASIER, TONKS!?)
And then Tonks was standing on some pretty bridge…or maybe it was a rooftop of a building…yeah I think it was a rooftop. And her hair was brown because she was depressed and she just stood there crying, but then Remus appeared behind her and wrapped his arms around her and suddenly her hair turned pink and she turned around and faced Remus with a big smile on her face and then they kissed and said “i love you” and it was adorable and Remus asked her to marry him and ughh…it was so happy. But then suddenly they were dead. And then I woke up. And then I wanted to cry over the tragicness of their love.
